I know this is overused and cliché but it gets better eventually. I had a very similar family situation and I knew that it wouldn’t get better until I move out so I essentially masked and became what they wanted me to be. I particularly have a narcissistic mom and she often projected onto me so I just had to perform to satisfy her delusions. Being two people at once is exhausting but you eventually compromise with yourself and bear with it until you can get into a situation to stop pretending.

There will always be a niche online community with your specific interests. The people you will meet online will stay as long as you make an effort to keep in touch. Even the low maintenance relationships are valuable. Maybe shoot a message to one of your old friends and see where that goes. Wouldn’t hurt to say hi every now and then.

Life is what you make it out to be, given whatever resources you have. Granted it’s not always going to be good and a lot of times it will hurt. Learning to accept that pain and sitting with it for a little helps a whole lot. There’s only so much that you can control. You can try to make your learning joyful again; try to reignite or find the passion in new knowledge. You can try and lessen your impact on the climate by eating less animal products and choosing plant-based options more.

Antidepressants aren’t meant to be a magic happy pill. Start with the small things. Maybe a good depression room cleaning and rearranging things around. A walk in the park. Less time on the screen. Sitting with your emotions. Venting and crying it out.

Yesterday, I would’ve agreed with and just wallowed with you but things got better today. You’re not alone. I believe that you can pick yourself up again one step at a time.

Sorry to hear that. It sucks when your family is the cause of stress. Just gotta hang in there and make it get better.

For me, my relationship with my immediate family has always been good. My bro, mom, and I of course have friction from time to time (specially me and my mom) but nothing relationship-ending.

Relatives? A few are okay with me and we have a pretty good relationship, but many relationships are strained. My family and I don’t really mind the majority since we rarely interact, but we do nourish the few that have been nice to us over the years.

My friends mostly have their own families now, and we don’t get to meet up often. We just got busy. We do have a group chat going on, but meet ups aren’t often.

My country, on the other hand, is a shithole so far. So there’s that.

All in all, it’s not terrible. But it could definitely still get a lot better.

I hope it gets better for you. If you try to remain positive and always make the best choices you can, and expend a good amount of effort, it can get better.

About the decline of society stuff, try to consume less news media. They constantly deliver rage and concern bait because it drives more viewing. Is the world in a tough spot? Yes, always has been and will be, what will stressing about it help? Just make your own life better and do your best for the world.