Reminder that Tommy Robinson is a name the knobhead took on to appear more blue collar. His given name is Stephen Christopher Yaxley-Lennon

I mean it is clear that it’s an aggregator

Did you mean aggrrrregator?

Went down quicker than the Paris Concord. It’s incredibly ironic using a name that’s tied to disaster and then trying to one-up it’s disastrousness.

Good luck with the very gradual road upward.

There might not be going back, but going in general and moving just for the sake of moving is a net positive.

I wish you well in the direction you move in and hope you may encounter a trustworthy fellow traveler to share your load and road with.

It’s a very slow progress. Like you don’t really notice your shoes wear in and then wear them down. It is weird enjoying things that you’d be too jaded to even consider enjoying before. But it takes time to register that you are actually enjoying something, I had not much context for that.

It’s not instantaneous, like its often portrayed in film (Theoden de-aging in LOTR f.i.) You need to re-learn a lot of things, like someone in a severe accident learning to walk again. Only it’s in your brain. First you need to realize you are not in constant stress anymore and threatened by everything in life all at once.

And then you need to slowly learn to relax all those mental muscles that were all balled up in paroxismic spasms for far too long.

And after a long time of trusting this new norm without getting betrayed by life or significant others you gain the mental state in which you discover that you are enyoing simple things. Those at first only slightly penetrate your walled garden as you are too careful to allow deep feelings to sway you (as deep feelings have betrayed you before). But step by step you are amazed by tiny, almost insighnificant things that bring joy to your soul.

Thats’s where I am at. I am both overjoyed at feeling things and so sorry for my former self for being in that locked-in state. But I am grateful for the experience and proud of the fact I persevered and not given in to suicidal thoughts. I am really happy at my current state of being even though every once in a while, like a craving for cigarettes I gave up a couple of years ago, I am drawn into a short burst of ‘appèl du vide (call of the void)’ where I imagine things unraveling again.

It’s not an easy road and I certainly needed the support of others. But the most important currency is trust. Trusting yourself, trusting your friends/significant others. And most likely you will never see as much support as someone in rehabilitation over drunkenly crashing their car into a tree, as the wounds are not visible. But it is worth it at some point you will realize how big of a handicap depression actually is and it’s such a free feeling not to be tied down by it anymore.

If only there were rates one could work out how many of currency x could be exchanged per dollar.

And if 6 his of that 30 hr work week are ‘working alone’ I’m pretty sure it’s fun those hours nap time and wanking and thinking about how ‘working from home’ employees can’t be trusted.

Then you are left with a 24 hr work week.

The irony is even bigger in the Netherlands: our proudest most beautiful national icon: old wind power.

New wind power however it’s deemed ugly and ‘visual pollution’ even though it’s the same thing and clean energy.

I’m Using the Dutch app Here we Go, works pretty good!

Not much more money from daddy putin and european funds being withdrawn…

Ok based on no understanding of music theory and just by my own vibe, I’m going with ‘Moves like Jagger’

What made you think up this particular question?

Oh wow, I didn’t know that.

Birth control

You can carry an opinel or laguiole afaik?

The Netherlands use to have voting machines, yet they were replaced by God old paper in 2009.

I was going to joke that they must’ve left the girl alone by mistake, as I interpreted ‘leaving alone’ in the ‘they didn’t bother her’ way.

But they left her literally alone on the streets to fend for her own.

Conman needs marks

Cop Land.

I didn’t have Sly Stallone outacting Robert Deniro as a possibility, but then that movie happened.

Thnx!