I love genuine questions and people putting in the effort to love and understand each other better. If you come at me just wanting to argue I’m going to troll you back. FAFO.
The two people they talk to on Discord would have to change over as well. I would love to use matrix for more things.But literally no one I know IRL Or otherwise communicate with regularly would switch with me so what’s the point. And honestly I don’t even really talk to people on here who do you have matrix so I do have an account but I don’t talk to anyone on it.
Also the icarus project from sgu, accursed of a show as it was.
I was actually going to say microwaves, but specifically the thing where people use the parts to make those things where you can burn fractals into wood. They look super cool but apparently if you brush up against the wrong component your heart just stops.
I was in a shitty relationship with the brother of my shityy ex best friend. We all lived together for several years and the short version is
she made most of the money
I contributed what I could while working more hours at a worse job for the first couple years then working while in school for the rest. My parents were also contributing funds.
he was completely jobless pretty much the entire time
they both constantly complained at me for not doing most or all of the housework and when I would breakdown from it they would mock my mental illness
When things finally all went south I picked a fight with her as she moved out over a small sentimental item I knew she would be too stubborn to not fight back over and got him to fight with her over it until they blew up at each other then cheated on him with a guy who honestly just kinda moved in and steadily started taking care of me (did I mention I was working in a hospital while in nursing school all through 2020 while supporting my leech of an ex?)
This other guy started doing my laundry and cooking for me while my ex just …kept playing video games. Later my ex was like “I did notice that you stopped fighting with me about chores” yeah that was you getting replaced by an upgrade dipshit. He says I traumatized him. I hope so. I hope he never does any of that to anyone else ever again.
Still with the other guy. He’s a mess too but not nearly as much and in a lot of the same ways as me and he’s never not had a job and oh also I’ve never had to threaten to bathe him by force.
Gym doesn’t help the weight issue. You gain weight in the gym, you lose it in the kitchen.
As a professional I’d basically be required to say the above, but I’m also watching from the inside as my country’s health system decays starting with populations that were underserved to begin with like the mentally ill. In other news I have a hospice interview tomorrow. If nothing else I’ll just get to focus on making people comfortable. That sounds so relaxing. I’m getting tired of having to tell people no all the time.
You know this is the recommended stance when deescalating violent psych patient because it keeps your hands visible (as in, not hiding something) and in front of your body / face in case they start swinging. I’ve never really felt comfortable doing it though and this kind of explains a possible reason why. I actually had a guy the other night who asked why everyone else was scared of him and I didn’t seem to be. There were probably a couple other reasons though (I’ve dealt with waaay wilder men, and also he mostly struck me as young, dumb, and loud, and dumb in the young sense not in the cognitively not there sense). But as far as this pose idk it just always seemed really patronizing to me. I usually stand more like One of these where at least one hand is on the neck or side of the head. Usually with my hands overlapping but my fingers not intertwined so they’re easy to separate and throw up in front of my face but not overtly defensive.
It probably doesn’t help that I’m incredibly irreverent of pretty much everything. I got really into western esoteric spirituality this past year (its really been helping me with introspection and integrating my personality in ways that neither secular therapy or my fundie upbringing ever quite fully did on their own) but at the same time I refuse to take any religion seriously, especially not my own.
Anyway someone in a related community got upset at me for having my irreverent attitude because I was “culturally appropriating” tarot cards from PoC and like dude. Look up where that shit is from its Northern Italy where my family is from just two generations ago they were fresh off the boat when the War was starting. You’re appropriating tarot from me. And if you want to get into the specific spiritual / divinatory usage that’s even fucking whiter. The closest you’re gonna get to claiming cultural appropriation is if you go all the way back before the tarot to the mummy dust the hermetic order of the golden dawn were probably mixing into the coke they were snorting while making that shit the fuck up based on their judeo-christian / classical mythology crossover fanfiction.
People just wanna be mad about shit and at this point I really don’t have the energy to spend appeasing people who have already decided to be mad at me. Imma just be over here using these cards to let my subconscious tell me which level of Maslow’s hierarchy of needs I fucked up this week.
Removal of gendered aspects without any additions.
I’m pretty apathetic to gender in general but I’ve had gender confirming surgery to be NB which I guess technically makes me trans and to be prefectly honest I’ve never felt more judged for it than by the lemmy LGBTQ+ community. The 50y/o southern man that was my nursing supervisor back when I was a new graduate was more respectful of my gender and lived experiences than these people. Honestly the thing they seem to hate most is specifically me expressing apathy for gender; I’ve mentioned that my transness expresses itself by not caring about the whole pronoun thing or needing to have any specific pronouns for myself personally, but that I understand it’s a matter of respect for others and I’ve literally gotten banned for saying that. Like almost exactly that. They’re absolutely hateful bastards for no reason other than that they’re upset and need everybody else to be upset too. I’m lucky I have a handful of supportive people irl because I sure asf wasn’t gonna find it here!
Or you’re night shift and look like death and they just kind of look really guilty while they ramble on for a few minutes before mumbling that you can just go.
I’ve been told I’m annoying and need to shut up as long as I can remember. Probably since I started talking.
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I’m about to get the unihertz atom (I’m trying to cut back on social media use) so I can tell you how that works out.