I’ve worked in sales for 10 years and as an aspiring musician I was dying to teach music or playing music full time for once. I found a job near me for the front desk at a Music school. I somehow managed to get the job, And I was the most experienced sales person they ever hired. For a bit, we were all happy and it was mutual.

I started going through some personal things, And it was impacting my job so I enrolled in therapy and got a prescription for escitalopram and it helped at first, but every few months I would have a conflict with someone, or share my opinion on something I disagreed with alotta… emotion. We abruptly lost a lot of teachers this holiday season and there were a lot of question marks on what was happening with some programs. A teacher came up and chewed me out for enrolling a student on their schedule for a day they closed but we didn’t the update. I expressed my dissatisfaction of this on my end of day report and that was the last straw for them and they fired me at the end of day yesterday. No final paychecks or anything.

I’m pretty torn because I got do the coolest thing ever in my opinion. I got to be the connection between the community and incredible music teachers. I got to do a ton of cool stuff. I learned so many neat things getting to work with musicians of all different backgrounds. I wish I had done better with de-escalating myself but it feels like my brain just goes on autopilot and I can’t help it

I guess now I will file for unemployment and apply to all the sales jobs that dont sound too awful. I have no savings and tons of debt and expensive rent so I only have the weekend to get over it.

Thanks for letting me share beehaw.