when i started losing weight in November of 2024 my last recorded weight was 363 lbs (165 kg). it was the heaviest i ever reached but i was not convinced it couldn’t have been worse given enough time. having lost so much weight at this point i am noticing parts of my body i have no recollection of seeing until now lol. like… what do you mean the tendons on my fingers are visible when i move them??? huh there’s also the same for my feet, and then the are veins more visible as well??? it’s freaking me out… i’m feeling constant reminders that i am a meat machine with bones and blood and i exist inside a skull.

it’s making me have to recognize my body as more than a depressed blob i piloted against my will. i’m starting to not absolutely despise what i see in reflective surfaces. mirrors are not embarrassing like they used to be. i expect to keep seeing my bigger self and am pleasantly surprised when i don’t.

now… i still have roughly 50 more lbs (23 kg) to lose before i’m at my target weight goal, and then i will reassess and decide from there to maintain or lose more. it’s hard to believe that i am 74% of the way complete. i didn’t think i’d be here ever and now i’m living it.

anyway yeah, why are human bodies weird? gahhhhhhHHHHHHHH

  • TheReturnOfPEB@reddthat.comEnglish
    20·
    17 days ago

    w00t! GG! WP!

    human bodies are not nearly as weird at the souls contained within. But i’m admiring your joy.

    other than that i have no notes.

    • chosensilence@pawb.socialOPEnglish
      13·
      17 days ago

      thank you but it wasn’t and that is the amazing part about it all. i was prescribed a glp-1 medication and it has been working as intended this whole time with little to no issues worth complaining about. without these breakthrough drugs i wouldn’t be experiencing how i feel today, which is honestly like a different person from last year. so many things have cleared for me and i am able to access emotional levels i never could. i feel physically better as well, of course. i am thankful to medical science for uncovering a treatment for obesity.

        • chosensilence@pawb.socialOPEnglish
          5·
          17 days ago

          neither will mine, unfortunately. but you can pay out of pocket 50% off through Eli Lilly themselves. it is $500 a month tho, ugh. i’m switching to state healthcare in November so the cost should be removed but i was paying that much for a while.

          • Russ@bitforged.spaceEnglish
            2·
            17 days ago

            Just as a caution for this, a lot of the assistance programs for the GLP-1s don’t actually support state healthcare programs from what I’ve seen, unfortunately.

            My endocrinologist wants to get my A1C down (and I could stand to lose a bit of weight in general) since it’s fairly high (just barely touching pre-diabetic levels), and they’ve only been able to get me on Trulicity for now. Insurance themselves will only cover GLP-1s if all the other A1C drugs completely fail (and show no results for X amount of time), they won’t approve it under just general weight loss alone.

            Something to look out for!

            • chosensilence@pawb.socialOPEnglish
              2·
              17 days ago

              i have been on my state’s insurance with my GLP-1 so i know it’s already something they approve and accept, thankfully. but yes! everyone should check before making a switch.

  • t3rmit3@beehaw.orgEnglish
    13·
    17 days ago

    Congratulations, that’s awesome! I lost a significant amount of weight a few years back, after struggling with overeating for a long time. It’s so amazing to feel good about your body, and even better when you see other people appreciating it as well.

    One word of advice from my journey; I would suspect you already have, but if not, I recommend checking with your physician or another medical professional about your target weight goal. If you find a point where you really start to plateau out, don’t force yourself towards a lower weight without their go-ahead. I actually developed what my GP suspects was an eating disorder while I was losing weight (the results felt so good, and the weight loss itself became sort of addicting), and I did some damage to my heart that took a not so fun procedure to correct. Lesson learned, but I wouldn’t want that to happen to anyone else.

    Good luck, and enjoy your newly re-discovered body!

  • Powderhorn@beehaw.orgEnglish
    6·
    17 days ago

    Congrats on your progress. You’ve lost more weight than my entire body has been at its heaviest!

      • Powderhorn@beehaw.orgEnglish
        2·
        17 days ago

        I’ve pretty much had the opposite problem my whole life. I only eat when hungry, which is once a day. It caused so much strife, even as a kid. My parents would force me to eat to the point of vomiting and then blamed me for my body not wanting it. The other end of the spectrum is no more pleasant. At 30, and at 6’3", I got down to 100 pounds during a rough patch emotionally. I generally hover around 128, with minor excursions.

        I literally cannot understand how people overeat; this is not a slight at you, it just sounds like fucking hell to be forced to eat several times a day. My most recent ex was, thankfully, the same as me. I’d cook dinner, and she never guilted me for not eating breakfast or lunch. From my perspective, food manufacturers have pushed unreasonable standards for so many generations that we honestly believe “breakfast is the most important meal of the day” is passed down from millennia of wisdom, when it was actually a marketing ploy in the early 20th century to goose sales.

  • 1984@lemmy.todayEnglish
    2·
    17 days ago

    I really hope you dont give up, life is much much much better when you have a decent body.